Can't say that I'm right here

But I can't say that I'm gone

a dark comedy

thunder
lightning
rain
bus
you, more rain
corte ingles
walk
talk
new friend
go
convince
bus
cobblestone
coffee shop
chocolate
camera
smiles
ancient holy
racing mind
lost, together
cafe..
2
model
beauty
talk
back
cafe..
mas
orange
walk
bus
house
spanish
pan
mcdonalds
beach
friends
7
2
2
talk
walk
sad
happy
release
park
sand
miss
hug
walk
pizza
talk
relations
walk
home
run
walls
3
walk
underground
water
anger
sadness
happiness

a bittersweet day in cadiz.

The Edge..

there is no honest way to explain it because the only people who really know where it is are the ones who have gone over.

~hunter s. thompson

futbol
mcdonlads
mcflurry
late
walk
friend
different bus
staring at you in the reflection of the window
missing bus stop.. on purpose
taking the long way home
walking through cobblestone streets
music in one ear and the sounds of this town in the other
oceanside sidewalks
the aroma of waterfront gardens
leaves
late night fisherman
empty beaches
appreciation
increasing love for a beautiful city by the sea
happiness?

Life in Cadiz

Now that I have been living in Cadiz for a few days, it has gotten a little easier.
School starts at 8:15, and I wake up at 7:30 make myself some breakfast and walk 5 min to school.
I have made a few friends at school, all of the kids are nice and friendly.
My teachers are also pretty accommodating. My fellow classmates know a little english and they help me understand what is going on.
I'm still adjusting to the 9 hour time difference, and the way people live here.
My soccer practice is from 8:30 to 11. Then I have to take a bus back home. Then, at 11:30 I have dinner. Most people go to sleep around 12.
The communication aspect is very difficult and stressful. Slowly I am understanding more and more.

I really havent had much time to do much yet. I havent even pulled out my camera yet.

Alright, I'm off to the beach with a couple other exchange students.

מגדל בבל

CADIZ!

Spain at last!
Everything has been pretty hectic since I arrived in Barcelona.
We had a 2 day Orientation with all the other kids studying abroad. That was a lot of fun, and all the kids were very nice.
Today I flew with about 10 or so kids to Jerez, which is the nearest airport to Cadiz.
There, host families picked up their new children.
Martin, Mary, and I all went in the same car with Mary's host father.
He drove us all to Cadiz, and dropped us off at the appropriate houses.
I was greeted by my host mom's boy friend, Pepe. He helped me carry my bags up into the 3rd floor of the apartment building I am in. My host mom is very friendly, but her son seems a bit shy. Lunch was later in the day around 2, and it consisted of homemade frys and some meet. It was delicious.
Dinner was a bit lighter, and server around 10. Eggs and potatoes also very good.
There is wireless internet in my house, so hopefully i can update this blog frequently.

This country is amazing. I love it. The language... eh, i need to start learning it.

....

17 SEP 09 - THURSDAY
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AR: PHILADELPHIA 448P ELAPSED TIME- 5:18
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LV: PHILADELPHIA 630P NONSTOP MILES- 3926 CONFIRMED
AR: BARCELONA 835A ELAPSED TIME- 8:05 ARVL DATE-18 SEP
DINNER-SNACK

misplaced.

Back.
I have been back in santa cruz since thursday..
Everyday has felt like a whirlpool of events since then.
I feel the urgency to leave as quickly as i can.
I have enjoyed seeing my friends again. Strangly, everybody is exactly how I imagined them.
I feel like such a spectator looking in on everything, all the drama and such.
Thursday..

Sleep: Last night, I finally got some sleep for the first time in a week.
Sick: I am still stuffed up, and sore throat. I hope I get better before i leave.
Stress: I have no idea what I am supposed to bring with me.
my list so far:
Camera
Pants
shorts
shirt


One of these days.. i need to level out.

i want to go find some beautiful place to get lost.
hm, I hear spain is nice this time of the year :)

gotta get back to packing.. :/


*edit
Looking over this post, I realized how scattered I am..
ugh, brain! work! please, dont die on me now!

take it easy...

First with your hands, then with your mouth
A downpour of sweat, damp cotton clouds
I was a fool, you were my friend
We made it happen

You took off your clothes, slept on the light
You stood there so brave, you used to be shy
Each feature improved, each movement refines
And eyes like a showroom

Now they are spreading out the blankets on beach
That weatherman is a liar
He said, "It would be raining"
But it's clear and blue as far as I can see

Left by the lamp, right next to the bed
A cartoon cat pad, she scratched with a pen
Everything is as it has always been
This never happened

Don't take it too bad, it's nothing you did
It's just once something dies you can't make it live
You're a beautiful boy, you're a sweet little kid
But I am a woman

So I laid back down, wrapped myself up in the sheet
And I must have looked like a ghost
Because something frightened me
And since then I've been so good at vanishing

Now I do as I please and I lie through my teeth
Someone might get hurt but it won't be me
She probably feel cheap but I just feel free
And a little bit empty

No, it isn't so hard to get close to me
There will be no arguments, we will always agree
And I will try and be kind when I ask you to leave
We will both take it easy

But if you stay too long inside my memory
I will trap you in a song tied to a
Melody
And I will keep you there so you can't bother me

transition

Well, Summer is just about over for me.
I am still in cordova and it has been pretty fun, but at the same time it feels so temporary.
I leave in a few days to head south, I'm sad that this summer is over, but at the same time, I am ready to move on to something new.
I really do not do well staying in one place for long.
As I hear about Santa Cruz and all that is involved with it, I am becoming more and more glad that I do not have to return there.






I know that the summer is over
I can't wait til the weather gets colder
Every night will freeze over
It's just another sleepless night

After all the things we've been through
Tell me, how many friends must we lose?

Speak the words that were never spoken
Windows to my heart, they still stay broken
So run me over with your car
I'll probably feel better than you do
Just one more ride around
Bodies scraping on the ground
I promise I won't make a sound

I know that the summer is over,
I can't wait til the weather gets colder
Every night will freeze over..

I'm dying but I'm still getting older
It's just another sleepless night
I know it's hard starting over
Especially when everything's frozen over
In September
I will swim out to sea
Cause I want to make my whole body turn dark blue
And then I think I will feel like you

After all the things I put you through,
It's just another sleepless night.